Have you ever sat and not even know where to begin with ? Guys ! Life literally hit me, I mean it ; School happened, work happened, it’s been one thing to another. I’m sorry, I really am .
However , that’s not the reason I took a break, i just didn’t know who I was anymore, I mean , for a moment, everything was good and not good at the same time , if that sounds right . I would look at my hands , look at myself and wonder to myself , “what exactly am I doing with my life ?”, have you ever asked yourself that question ? How am I living ? , I began to look at myself differently, i wasn’t confident anymore, honestly guys , something went wrong ! I just didn’t know what it was .
A few days ago , someone messaged me and asked what was going on , I mean, in the midst of all other people who did ask , I actually felt this person was asking from another point of view I couldn’t pinpoint, I sensed care however .
I then decided to check out the website, I hadn’t looked through it in a while , I just couldn’t forgive myself for not writing. However I did , I began to read the contents of what I wrote , and in my heart, it dawned on me , as I realised I kept writing on how we need to grow , never giving up , always hoping , always believing, and not until then did I really understand the words that are in the content of what I write .
It’s a miracle indeed, that as I looked back and read what I’d written, I was in awe , I never knew I myself was writing to me , today . I never knew I was helping myself overcome the problems I was soon Going to one day face.
Now I write this with all confidence in me, because now I’m not just a writer , I now understand who I’m , i now know who I see in the mirror without having to be uncertain, i now believe that I’m capable, of overcoming my so called fears.
Hmm, why am I telling you this , the summary of all of this is; I , Sharon, doubted in myself , I looked down on myself , I looked down on my capabilities, I didn’t honestly want to go to God on this matter , pride set in as I thought I could do it without Him and this pride broke me to bits . I mean, I thought I could have God in my life and exclude Him from certain decisions I make , haha, NO way, now I know better.
Life teaches each and every one of us a lesson, I’ve chosen to share mine, forsaken “me” as I believe and hope it has helped someone.
You are a miracle to me , and I call you a gift, thank you , thank you, thank you , yes , to you reading this, I’m grateful, for the love, care , support, and prayers. God bless you.
See you soon 😚
Yours.
Sharon Paulina Boye.
26th November , 2017.
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